ANOTHER Life Update ^_^

Hello, lovelies who have taken the time out their life to read the antics of a 17-year-old girl! Now it's time for another update on my life! My life has gotten so much better in the past 10 months since my last "update" in November. It's actually 5 in the morning right now as I'm typing this and I was actually thinking about early junior year (ie. the time period around that update) and how much better things have gotten as a result of the efforts I have chosen to put in, and decided to do a new update (especially since I have been so MIA!).
Now let's begin!

1. I started trying to make effort to talk to people and engage myself with interactions
This was a biggie. I started off junior year so closed off from the world inside my own bubble of depression. I had assumed that no one could ever understand the pain I was going through and I must be by myself. However, as time passed on, I allowed myself to open into simple socializing and be genuine in the way I was. While there is nothing wrong with needing your alone time to recharge and feeling balanced, in the grand scheme of it, we rely on other human beings to provide us a gateway as a release of our inevitable loneliness whether we are aware of it or not. In hindsight, I do not regret not realizing this sooner as the raw emotions I endured while in my isolation provided me the right level of discomfort for me to actively change. :)

2. Therapy! Yup your shrink can do you a whole lotta good, whadya know? I had been in therapy for years at this point but was never really actively working through issues beyond surface level. TALK TO YOUR THERAPIST ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING! Please, it is the best thing you can ever do to yourself, someone is trained to listen to you and aid in sorting out your emotions, so you gotta take full advantage of that. I found myself telling my therapist deep inner realms of my psyche I would only ever tell friends before and it dawned upon me that your friends can listen to your problems, but they are not your problems solvers nor is it their responsibility. Your friends aren't trained in how to deal with serious topics the way a therapist is.

3. I started to make efforts into being PRO-active instead of reactive! If any of you have ever read Covey's The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People you know that this is actually his first habit. Instead of sitting there festered in how annoyed I was at that oh so rude comment someone else made, what would have been best for me and everyone else would be to take whatever comes my way into my OWN growth. Like that aforementioned rude comment? I can choose to ignore it, acknowledge that it won't matter in the grand scheme, calmly state that it hurt my feelings but move on, and so many other better options.

I meant there are really so many things but as someone who was dear to me once said out of anger to me "long winded speeches tend to dilute the point".... I hope you all are doing amazing!